After looking through arwen's photo albums on friendster, I'm sooooo envious of her and jo!!!
I've always wanted to travel to many countries but I guess, I've chosen the path to marriage and having children. We plan to take Allyson to Australia next June and have decided to engage the services of a friend who will plan our trip. We will most likely choose Perth so that we may go visit one of my grandaunties staying over there.
Travelling is sooo fun and the thought of just going to a new country excites me tremendously hahaha. Hopefully, we will be able to travel further as the years go by. It's not going to be easy taking a child overseas but I guess we will be able to cope :)
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Friday, December 7, 2007
A Poem to Share
It's the end of Week 3 of the school vacation. As I was reorganising some worksheets at my workstation, our school counsellor passed a very nice piece of article. It came from www.cgcreations.org/poems/courtesy.html. The title of the poem is
Our Kids Deserve Common Courtesy Too! The author is unknown.
I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh, excuse me Please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me too;
Wasnt' even watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.
But at home, a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My daughter stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked her down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
She walked away, her little heart was broken.
I didn't realise how harshly I'd spoken.
While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use,
But the children you love, you seem to abuse.
Look on the kitchen floor,
You''ll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers she brought for you.
She picked them herself : pink, yellw and blue.
She stood quietly not to spoil the surprise
and you never saw the tears in her eyes."
By this time, I felt very small,
and now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by her bed;
"Wake up, little girl, wake up," I said.
"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
She smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Daughter, I'm sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
She said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."
I said, "Daughter, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."
This very simple poem sets me thinking about how some of us actually treat our colleagues, friends and strangers with more courtesy than towards our own family members. I guess sometimes, we take them for granted as we are so close to them.
It's never too late to remember our thank yous and pleases when we communicate with our own parents and siblings and our own children. It's not late to start right now!! A simple good morning when we wake up and a simple thank you or please can really make our lives better and make the family a happier environment to be in.
Our Kids Deserve Common Courtesy Too! The author is unknown.
I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh, excuse me Please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me too;
Wasnt' even watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.
But at home, a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My daughter stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked her down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
She walked away, her little heart was broken.
I didn't realise how harshly I'd spoken.
While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use,
But the children you love, you seem to abuse.
Look on the kitchen floor,
You''ll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers she brought for you.
She picked them herself : pink, yellw and blue.
She stood quietly not to spoil the surprise
and you never saw the tears in her eyes."
By this time, I felt very small,
and now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by her bed;
"Wake up, little girl, wake up," I said.
"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
She smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Daughter, I'm sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
She said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."
I said, "Daughter, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."
This very simple poem sets me thinking about how some of us actually treat our colleagues, friends and strangers with more courtesy than towards our own family members. I guess sometimes, we take them for granted as we are so close to them.
It's never too late to remember our thank yous and pleases when we communicate with our own parents and siblings and our own children. It's not late to start right now!! A simple good morning when we wake up and a simple thank you or please can really make our lives better and make the family a happier environment to be in.
Hong Kong Trip
Our HK trip lasted from 1 Dec to 3 Dec. It was a very interesting trip for both of us as there were many FIRSTS in HK. It's the first time I bought a pair of Crocs over in HK as I wore the wrong pair of shoes thinking everything would me fine. How wrong was I !! I had blisters and had to get a pair of shoes immediately. We chanced upon the Crocs shop and was over the hill as I could see that Jasper was as worried as I over my blisters. He chose a blue flowery pair for me sooo sweet hahaah.
It was also the first time we walked sooooo much in HK. Both of us are not the kind who will walk for hours even if we are shopping in Singapore. Our limit was at most 2.5h shopping in Singapore. In HK, we walked nearly 8 hours with only 15-20 minutes break in between for lunch and tea. I guess the weather was nice to walk..cooling not too much and sticky.
The next first was our ride on the tram. It was the one on the road not the one leading to the Victoria Peak. We just flagged one down and boarded it without even knowing where the tram was heading to. In the end, we alighted at some tram stop and asked two police officers for directions to the nearest MTR.
Another first was having their desserts. One was egg yolk steamed with almond while the other was egg white steamed with milk. Both was sooooo wonderful. The HK cafes in Singapore do not even sell them. I'm looking forward to going back to eat their dessert again *yum yum*
One more first was our trip to Disneyland. I took all the rides ahhahaha they were all very mild very suitable for me. After my trip to korea on the roller coaster and viking, I told myself I'm never never going for exciting rides. So Disneyland is jus for me. I was like a kid going on all the rides such as sitting in Pooh's honey pot, going on a mini cruise and watching a musical. The shopping in Disneyland was superb. I wanted to buy everything back from their shops. Both Jasper and I had to think very hard and just concentrate on buying some gifts back for our family members.
The Ladies Market to me was not very appealing as I'm not into buying their imitation handbags. The shopping malls in HK sells about the same things as in Singapore. We bought some tops from Giordano, Esprit and Bossini.
Basically, we just ate a lot on this trip, the dim sum, desserts, wanton noodles, prawn dumpling noodles etc. We wished we had more time for this trip. Before the plane took off back to Singapore, we told each other that we are going to spend more time in HK on our next trip which would probably be in 2 years. We will take Allyson along and go to Disneyland again. We also plan to visit Lantau Island, Macau and Temple Street Market. We may also go over to Shenzhen and Zhuhai if possible. We will definitely eat more on our next trip!
Yippee!! That's something to look forward to!
It was also the first time we walked sooooo much in HK. Both of us are not the kind who will walk for hours even if we are shopping in Singapore. Our limit was at most 2.5h shopping in Singapore. In HK, we walked nearly 8 hours with only 15-20 minutes break in between for lunch and tea. I guess the weather was nice to walk..cooling not too much and sticky.
The next first was our ride on the tram. It was the one on the road not the one leading to the Victoria Peak. We just flagged one down and boarded it without even knowing where the tram was heading to. In the end, we alighted at some tram stop and asked two police officers for directions to the nearest MTR.
Another first was having their desserts. One was egg yolk steamed with almond while the other was egg white steamed with milk. Both was sooooo wonderful. The HK cafes in Singapore do not even sell them. I'm looking forward to going back to eat their dessert again *yum yum*
One more first was our trip to Disneyland. I took all the rides ahhahaha they were all very mild very suitable for me. After my trip to korea on the roller coaster and viking, I told myself I'm never never going for exciting rides. So Disneyland is jus for me. I was like a kid going on all the rides such as sitting in Pooh's honey pot, going on a mini cruise and watching a musical. The shopping in Disneyland was superb. I wanted to buy everything back from their shops. Both Jasper and I had to think very hard and just concentrate on buying some gifts back for our family members.
The Ladies Market to me was not very appealing as I'm not into buying their imitation handbags. The shopping malls in HK sells about the same things as in Singapore. We bought some tops from Giordano, Esprit and Bossini.
Basically, we just ate a lot on this trip, the dim sum, desserts, wanton noodles, prawn dumpling noodles etc. We wished we had more time for this trip. Before the plane took off back to Singapore, we told each other that we are going to spend more time in HK on our next trip which would probably be in 2 years. We will take Allyson along and go to Disneyland again. We also plan to visit Lantau Island, Macau and Temple Street Market. We may also go over to Shenzhen and Zhuhai if possible. We will definitely eat more on our next trip!
Yippee!! That's something to look forward to!
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
United Square and Holidays
Just last Sunday, I took 2 P5 pupils to United Square for the Upwords Challenge organised by Standard Chartered. There were also sponsors from Moo ice cream, Vitagen and Marigold Jelly.
My kids got into the semi finals and went home with a consolation prize (Monopoly set). It was an achievement for the school as we usually go home after the preliminary rounds ;p
On Saturday, my HOD took 2 P4 pupils and they went into the finals. They each received a Monopoly set and the school received a medal. The whole even lasted till 4pm and guess what I did during the few hours? I went SHOPPING!!!! hahahahah
Things at United Square were quite expensive so I had to really think through and choose my purchases carefully. The wonderful thing about United Square is there are sooo many kids' stuff. There are even a few shops selling interior designing for children's room. It was quite an experience as I had never been to United Square.
My brother just shifted to his new place and I passed my queen sized bed to my niece ad it was not used often. We shifted the sofa bed and TV console from one room to another. We decided to do up a playroom for Allyson these two months. Jasper suggested buying the foam mats which we can dismantle as and when we like and paste some interesting pictures on the wall for her play and learning experience. We are still decided whether to leave the study table with the play room or should we shift it to the other room with the tv console and sofa set. hmmm... space is a tricky area in my home ;p
ARGH!!! today I found ants on the ledge of my kitchen sliding door and the ledge of my mini storeroom. Both of us are very paranoid over ants so I took time to spray all the corner ledges first. I ran out of insecticide. I need to buy more later...
I'm looking forward to a nice holiday in HK as well as staying in Singapore. We have a list of things to complete this holidays. Hope that our financial and time factors are able to help us fulfil what we wanna do for the house :)
My kids got into the semi finals and went home with a consolation prize (Monopoly set). It was an achievement for the school as we usually go home after the preliminary rounds ;p
On Saturday, my HOD took 2 P4 pupils and they went into the finals. They each received a Monopoly set and the school received a medal. The whole even lasted till 4pm and guess what I did during the few hours? I went SHOPPING!!!! hahahahah
Things at United Square were quite expensive so I had to really think through and choose my purchases carefully. The wonderful thing about United Square is there are sooo many kids' stuff. There are even a few shops selling interior designing for children's room. It was quite an experience as I had never been to United Square.
My brother just shifted to his new place and I passed my queen sized bed to my niece ad it was not used often. We shifted the sofa bed and TV console from one room to another. We decided to do up a playroom for Allyson these two months. Jasper suggested buying the foam mats which we can dismantle as and when we like and paste some interesting pictures on the wall for her play and learning experience. We are still decided whether to leave the study table with the play room or should we shift it to the other room with the tv console and sofa set. hmmm... space is a tricky area in my home ;p
ARGH!!! today I found ants on the ledge of my kitchen sliding door and the ledge of my mini storeroom. Both of us are very paranoid over ants so I took time to spray all the corner ledges first. I ran out of insecticide. I need to buy more later...
I'm looking forward to a nice holiday in HK as well as staying in Singapore. We have a list of things to complete this holidays. Hope that our financial and time factors are able to help us fulfil what we wanna do for the house :)
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Insecurity
Sometimes, I wondered if I was not allowed to be happy with my life. Just yesterday, I had keyed in marks for pupils' exam papers and settled things that I planned to settle. I was quite happy and looked forward to going back to play with Allyson and spend time with Jasper too. My happiness was shortlived. Jasper was not well. He felt giddy and had to rest in bed. I took over the task of taking care of Allyson the whole afternoon. She slept quite a bit so it was not too bad. By 7pm, Jasper's giddiness worsened. Had to call my father-in -aw to come over and take him to the doctor. Doctor diagnosed as vertigo, a condition that causes Jasper to see stars and not able to walk straight. Doc says it's cos of the imbalance of fluid in the ear. I was so worried the whole afternoon and night.
My in-laws took Allyson back with them as Jasper had to rest at home the next day and it would be difficult for me to take Allyson to my in laws place early next morning. I was also rather tired as I didn't manage to rest at all even while Allyson slept. So, it was a good idea that they took her home in case I need to take care of Jasper in the night.
Today, my in laws told Jasper that Allyson had slight fever last night. Once again, it added on to my worries. I don't know why but when Jasper was at the clinic, as I was carrying Allyson, I had this immense insecurity. I was very afraid of losing Jasper. I prayed very hard telling the gods that I had already lost my second child. I can't imagine what would happen to me if anything happened to my loved ones. I had tears welling up my eyes and I was fighting very hard not to let the tears drop onto Allyson. I know it was silly of me but I just couldn't help feeling that way. I kept reassuring myself that everything's gonna be ok.
Sometimes, I get very sensitive towards comments made by my in laws regarding Allyson. I don't know why but at times, they made me feel that I've not looked after Allyson well. My greatest regret was not to consult a lactation consultant when I realised I could not pump out milk. If I had consulted the lactation consultant, then Allyson would not fall sick so often. The last time she had fever was about 2 weeks ago. These days, I get very paranoid if I l realised that she's abit feverish. I guess it's gods' will that I should not have a second one as they probably know that I would not be able to cope. I cried. Jasper gave me a hug.
I guess I really need a break. Jasper had very wonderfully booked tickets, accomodation and disneyland tickets for Hong Kong. I've never travelled to HK. Let's hope this trip will perk me up a little and prepare me for a brand new year.
My in-laws took Allyson back with them as Jasper had to rest at home the next day and it would be difficult for me to take Allyson to my in laws place early next morning. I was also rather tired as I didn't manage to rest at all even while Allyson slept. So, it was a good idea that they took her home in case I need to take care of Jasper in the night.
Today, my in laws told Jasper that Allyson had slight fever last night. Once again, it added on to my worries. I don't know why but when Jasper was at the clinic, as I was carrying Allyson, I had this immense insecurity. I was very afraid of losing Jasper. I prayed very hard telling the gods that I had already lost my second child. I can't imagine what would happen to me if anything happened to my loved ones. I had tears welling up my eyes and I was fighting very hard not to let the tears drop onto Allyson. I know it was silly of me but I just couldn't help feeling that way. I kept reassuring myself that everything's gonna be ok.
Sometimes, I get very sensitive towards comments made by my in laws regarding Allyson. I don't know why but at times, they made me feel that I've not looked after Allyson well. My greatest regret was not to consult a lactation consultant when I realised I could not pump out milk. If I had consulted the lactation consultant, then Allyson would not fall sick so often. The last time she had fever was about 2 weeks ago. These days, I get very paranoid if I l realised that she's abit feverish. I guess it's gods' will that I should not have a second one as they probably know that I would not be able to cope. I cried. Jasper gave me a hug.
I guess I really need a break. Jasper had very wonderfully booked tickets, accomodation and disneyland tickets for Hong Kong. I've never travelled to HK. Let's hope this trip will perk me up a little and prepare me for a brand new year.
Morton's of Chicago
Celebrated Jasper's b'day at Morton's recently. Was kind of surprised that Morton's not as fine dining as we thought it would be. It's just a very simple, cosy American restaurant. I must say the service was impeccable. After I made reservations, they asked for Jasper's name. When we reached our table, we discovered that the reason for them to ask for his name was to personalise the menu. There were some shimmering words and coffetti on the table as well. Halfway through our dinner, two of Morton's staff came to our table and sang a birthday song for him. At the end of our dinner, they even took a photo for us and presented the photo to us.
Morton's is famous for their steak and dessert. We didn't quite like the steak. Though we ordered the prime cut, it was sooo thick that we nearly wanted to give up eating the steak after 3/4 of it. Luckily we shared the steak. The complementary onion bread was not really to my likeing too. What impressed me most was the dessert with chocolate oozing out of the fudge cake We did not try to seafood but the lobster at the next table looked good ; )
We concluded that we still prefer the steak at Jack's place though Morton's price is really high.
We both decided that we shall just order the dessert and lobster on our next visit to Mortons.
The next place we would like to try is Angus Steak House.
Morton's is famous for their steak and dessert. We didn't quite like the steak. Though we ordered the prime cut, it was sooo thick that we nearly wanted to give up eating the steak after 3/4 of it. Luckily we shared the steak. The complementary onion bread was not really to my likeing too. What impressed me most was the dessert with chocolate oozing out of the fudge cake We did not try to seafood but the lobster at the next table looked good ; )
We concluded that we still prefer the steak at Jack's place though Morton's price is really high.
We both decided that we shall just order the dessert and lobster on our next visit to Mortons.
The next place we would like to try is Angus Steak House.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Taking things easy
I went back to school today and received much pats and support from colleagues. When I got back home, I read comments left by two good friends. Thank you to all who have given me the support and tried to perk me up. I will definitely live my life more fruitfully from now on.
I was sharing with Jasper during lunch that after I gave birth to Allyson, I've learnt to take things easier and not be too particular about the way I do things or the way others do things. I must say, after the abortion, I've learnt to take things even easier than the time after I gave birth. Somehow, it's heartening to know that I'm able to take things easy and not be too hard on myself. When I was younger, I tend to expect too much from myself as well as from others. After marriage and later on becoming a mother has totally changed my view on many things.
I remember one day when I was waiting for Jasper to unload some boxes to my mother's new house, a malay family was going out too. They were driving a 7-seater. Actually it was alright for them to turn out but somehow I guess they were worried that they may scratch their car. I got out of the car and told the wife to give us just 5 minutes and my hubby will be down soon. I was smiling and even apologised to them. Instead of appreciating, this malay lady just shot be a very impatient look and started showing some hand signals. I was totally hurt. I was just asking for a few minutes and even apologised for the inconvenience. In the end, this is how I was being treated. At that time, it dawned on me that the sentence 'it does not pay to be kind' seems very apt. I was very angry at that time. I guess, I may not be that angry now if the same thing happens again.
When I got to know of my unborn child's condition, I actually had thoughts like 'have I done anything wrong that caused my child to have some a condition', 'maybe I had offended people', 'maybe I should be more forgiving towards others who treat me badly'.... there were so many 'maybes' in my head. In this world, does it mean that if I do good, good things will befall me?? I really don't know. Whether life is fair or not, I don't know either.
All I know is for the sake of Allyson, I believe I should do more good deeds and be more patient as well as take things easier so that Allyson will have a good life.
I was sharing with Jasper during lunch that after I gave birth to Allyson, I've learnt to take things easier and not be too particular about the way I do things or the way others do things. I must say, after the abortion, I've learnt to take things even easier than the time after I gave birth. Somehow, it's heartening to know that I'm able to take things easy and not be too hard on myself. When I was younger, I tend to expect too much from myself as well as from others. After marriage and later on becoming a mother has totally changed my view on many things.
I remember one day when I was waiting for Jasper to unload some boxes to my mother's new house, a malay family was going out too. They were driving a 7-seater. Actually it was alright for them to turn out but somehow I guess they were worried that they may scratch their car. I got out of the car and told the wife to give us just 5 minutes and my hubby will be down soon. I was smiling and even apologised to them. Instead of appreciating, this malay lady just shot be a very impatient look and started showing some hand signals. I was totally hurt. I was just asking for a few minutes and even apologised for the inconvenience. In the end, this is how I was being treated. At that time, it dawned on me that the sentence 'it does not pay to be kind' seems very apt. I was very angry at that time. I guess, I may not be that angry now if the same thing happens again.
When I got to know of my unborn child's condition, I actually had thoughts like 'have I done anything wrong that caused my child to have some a condition', 'maybe I had offended people', 'maybe I should be more forgiving towards others who treat me badly'.... there were so many 'maybes' in my head. In this world, does it mean that if I do good, good things will befall me?? I really don't know. Whether life is fair or not, I don't know either.
All I know is for the sake of Allyson, I believe I should do more good deeds and be more patient as well as take things easier so that Allyson will have a good life.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Poor Allyson
On Thursday, My mother and I had to take Allyson back from the infant care centre. She had fever. From Thursday onwards, after we brought her to the PD, her fever went up and down till today. Just this morning, we were very happy that there was no more fever but when evening came, her fever came back. The last check was 37.2 degree celsius.
I'm praying very hard that her fever will go away soon. Jasper and I felt very sad when we see the restlessness in her. My mum in law even cried seeing her fall sick. We have decided to get a maid. It's quite terrible to see Allyson suffer. We put her into infant care in Aug and till now, about three months, she had been sick a few times. twice fever and twice running nose and cough.
On Thursday when I brought her back home, I was very very scared that I may lose her. I can't afford to lose my daughter. I've already lost a child. I don't know what will become of me if I were to lose Allyson. Some may think that it's a silly thought as all babies do get sick. No matter what others say, I still do not feel secure until she is really well. As parents, it's our duty to make sure that she gets well and protected.
I pray that Allyson will get well soon.
I'm praying very hard that her fever will go away soon. Jasper and I felt very sad when we see the restlessness in her. My mum in law even cried seeing her fall sick. We have decided to get a maid. It's quite terrible to see Allyson suffer. We put her into infant care in Aug and till now, about three months, she had been sick a few times. twice fever and twice running nose and cough.
On Thursday when I brought her back home, I was very very scared that I may lose her. I can't afford to lose my daughter. I've already lost a child. I don't know what will become of me if I were to lose Allyson. Some may think that it's a silly thought as all babies do get sick. No matter what others say, I still do not feel secure until she is really well. As parents, it's our duty to make sure that she gets well and protected.
I pray that Allyson will get well soon.
The Abortion
Both Jasper and I carried a heavy heart as we reached the hospital. No matter how upset we were, we both tried to make each other happy. The procedure was very smooth. It took just half an hour and I was brought back to the ward to rest for about 2 hours.
All I remembered when I was pushed to the operating theatre, was the oxygen mask. When I woke up, there was no pain at all. All I had was bleeding, just like the normal menses. Doc told me that it would take about 2 weeks to clear. I woke up with a sore throat and he explained that he had inserted a tube into my throat cos of the oxygen. Just like the kind we see on TV serials.
My sore throat healed by Friday.
I do think of my unborn child and I try to numb myself by doing lots of stuff at home.
On Thursday, my breasts swelled and I had to squeeze out the colustrum to reduce the swelling. If I do not do it, the lumps may develop into cancerous cells. As I was squeezing out the milk, I was crying uncontrollably. The pain was not from the swollen breasts but from my heart. I decided to fully breast feed my second child so that it will have greater immunity. I guess I shall give it to my third child. Jasper and I decided to try for a child after one year.
We are still waiting for the results of the test of the genes. Shall pray for the best and hope that whatever happened to this second child will not happen to any of the other children.
All I remembered when I was pushed to the operating theatre, was the oxygen mask. When I woke up, there was no pain at all. All I had was bleeding, just like the normal menses. Doc told me that it would take about 2 weeks to clear. I woke up with a sore throat and he explained that he had inserted a tube into my throat cos of the oxygen. Just like the kind we see on TV serials.
My sore throat healed by Friday.
I do think of my unborn child and I try to numb myself by doing lots of stuff at home.
On Thursday, my breasts swelled and I had to squeeze out the colustrum to reduce the swelling. If I do not do it, the lumps may develop into cancerous cells. As I was squeezing out the milk, I was crying uncontrollably. The pain was not from the swollen breasts but from my heart. I decided to fully breast feed my second child so that it will have greater immunity. I guess I shall give it to my third child. Jasper and I decided to try for a child after one year.
We are still waiting for the results of the test of the genes. Shall pray for the best and hope that whatever happened to this second child will not happen to any of the other children.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Unexpected Turn of Events
On 8th October 2007 (Monday), I went for my usual check up and the gynae for my 2nd baby. Jasper and I were greeted by a shocking news which both of us didn't know how to react. Through the scan, a big swell was spotted on the neck area of the foetus. My gynae was not too optimistic about it. After a few seconds, he spotted a space at the throat area. He sat both of us down near his table and started explaining to us. He told us to go for a second scan at Thomson Medical on 15 Oct. There is a possibility that I may have to terminate my pregnancy.
For the whole week, we were trying to remain positive but at the same time not knowing what to do as gynae could not give a name to the swelling. He said it could be chromosonal or it could be other kinds of defects.
On 15 October 2007 (Monday) at 10am, I was at Thomson Medical for a viability scan. The head sonographer scanned for quite a while and told Jasper and I the same thing that my gynae had told us. The swell is known as Cystic Hygroma. We brought the films back to my gynae before noon and he further explained that in this case, if I were to continue with the pregnancy, my poor baby may have to go through a massive operation after birth. I can't imagine a baby barely a week old going through such operation. He added that even after the operation, there may be other complications which would affect other parts of the baby's body. I told my gynae we needed an hour to decide whether to terminate the pregnancy or not. If we decided to terminate, it would have to be done within the one or two days as I am already in my 15th week. After these few days, I would have to go through induced labour. It's a 50-50 chance.
Jasper and I sat down at Gelare and started to discuss. We were overcome with emotions and tears just could not stop flowing down from my cheeks. I didn't have the confidence and courage to keep this baby. Jasper felt that if I continued with the pregnancy, there may be a chance the baby may recover (meaning the swell may be gone). We decided to ask Jasper's sister to check out some information on Cystic Hygroma. Indeed, we were more enlightened with what we found out. It is lymphatic and had something to do with white blood cells. Most babies either can't survive the whole 40 weeks or they just do not survive long after birth.
We went back to my gynae and made an appointment to terminate the pregnancy today
(16 October 2007) in the afternoon. He told us that it's a kind of chance occurence and we may not get it again in the next pregnancy. This whole condition has nothing to do with either of our blood too. We left the clinic with a heavy heart. Jasper tried to cheer me up but I know deep down, it's not easy for him either. Gynae gave me two pills and told me to take in the morning about 6 hours before the termination of pregnancy. After that, I can't eat or drink anything throughout the whole 6 hours until after the termination is done.
When we got home, Jasper went to a forum that talks about the condition that my baby has. There's a case in the West where a child with this condition lived till 11 years old. Because of the swell, the looks of the child is not normal like other kids. The mother commented that the child could count and speak too. There were other examples too. A child with this condition was born but would not speak as the swell had affected the voice box and throat.
As I'm typing now, there's a few more hours to go before I make my way to the hospital with Jasper. This morning, over breakfast, I told Jasper that I can't bear to bring our child to this world to go through all the torture. It breaks my heart to have to terminate my pregnancy but I don't have the courage to go through what the other mothers had gone through in the West. I may be very selfish but what would happen to my poor child if both of us were gone from this world one day. Many years ago, I was with a volunteer group and we brought adults with physical disabilities (on wheel chair or with walking sticks) out. While we were in the train cabin, we received many stares from adults and children. I told myself that if people in Singapore can't even treat others with physical disabilities in a friendly manner, how will they treat a child with an abnormal appearance! Others may condemn me for killing my child but I do not want my child to go through all the unhappiness, discrimination and weird startes throughout his/her childhood.
I pray very hard that the gods and ancestors will take good care of my unborn second child after the termination is done.
To my unborn child : Everyone of us in the family loves you very much. Please forgive Daddy and Mummy for making this decision. We will remember you in our hearts.
For the whole week, we were trying to remain positive but at the same time not knowing what to do as gynae could not give a name to the swelling. He said it could be chromosonal or it could be other kinds of defects.
On 15 October 2007 (Monday) at 10am, I was at Thomson Medical for a viability scan. The head sonographer scanned for quite a while and told Jasper and I the same thing that my gynae had told us. The swell is known as Cystic Hygroma. We brought the films back to my gynae before noon and he further explained that in this case, if I were to continue with the pregnancy, my poor baby may have to go through a massive operation after birth. I can't imagine a baby barely a week old going through such operation. He added that even after the operation, there may be other complications which would affect other parts of the baby's body. I told my gynae we needed an hour to decide whether to terminate the pregnancy or not. If we decided to terminate, it would have to be done within the one or two days as I am already in my 15th week. After these few days, I would have to go through induced labour. It's a 50-50 chance.
Jasper and I sat down at Gelare and started to discuss. We were overcome with emotions and tears just could not stop flowing down from my cheeks. I didn't have the confidence and courage to keep this baby. Jasper felt that if I continued with the pregnancy, there may be a chance the baby may recover (meaning the swell may be gone). We decided to ask Jasper's sister to check out some information on Cystic Hygroma. Indeed, we were more enlightened with what we found out. It is lymphatic and had something to do with white blood cells. Most babies either can't survive the whole 40 weeks or they just do not survive long after birth.
We went back to my gynae and made an appointment to terminate the pregnancy today
(16 October 2007) in the afternoon. He told us that it's a kind of chance occurence and we may not get it again in the next pregnancy. This whole condition has nothing to do with either of our blood too. We left the clinic with a heavy heart. Jasper tried to cheer me up but I know deep down, it's not easy for him either. Gynae gave me two pills and told me to take in the morning about 6 hours before the termination of pregnancy. After that, I can't eat or drink anything throughout the whole 6 hours until after the termination is done.
When we got home, Jasper went to a forum that talks about the condition that my baby has. There's a case in the West where a child with this condition lived till 11 years old. Because of the swell, the looks of the child is not normal like other kids. The mother commented that the child could count and speak too. There were other examples too. A child with this condition was born but would not speak as the swell had affected the voice box and throat.
As I'm typing now, there's a few more hours to go before I make my way to the hospital with Jasper. This morning, over breakfast, I told Jasper that I can't bear to bring our child to this world to go through all the torture. It breaks my heart to have to terminate my pregnancy but I don't have the courage to go through what the other mothers had gone through in the West. I may be very selfish but what would happen to my poor child if both of us were gone from this world one day. Many years ago, I was with a volunteer group and we brought adults with physical disabilities (on wheel chair or with walking sticks) out. While we were in the train cabin, we received many stares from adults and children. I told myself that if people in Singapore can't even treat others with physical disabilities in a friendly manner, how will they treat a child with an abnormal appearance! Others may condemn me for killing my child but I do not want my child to go through all the unhappiness, discrimination and weird startes throughout his/her childhood.
I pray very hard that the gods and ancestors will take good care of my unborn second child after the termination is done.
To my unborn child : Everyone of us in the family loves you very much. Please forgive Daddy and Mummy for making this decision. We will remember you in our hearts.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Counting Down to Hols and Pregnancy
It's week 5 of the school term. I'm really looking forward to the holidays. I may not be travelling anywhere cos I will be about 4-5 months pregnant by then. My holidays will officially start from Nov 26 cos we have to be in school till 5pm for the first week of the hols. *shake head*
Jasper and I plan to take Allyson to Gymboree and some other enrichment classes to expose her to other kids as well as see what interest her. Going to spend my time sourcing for a maid too. Jasper and I felt that it's not very economical to put two kids in infant care cos I would rather get a maid to take care of my chores. Going to plan some gatherings too. I always like the year end cos it's near to X'mas and somehow, the feeling of getting together with friends makes me feel rather heartwarming.
The symptoms for my 2nd pregnancy is very different. I tend to be nausea throughout the day especially after every meal even when I've not eaten a lot...I tend to be very very sleepy too hahaha usually, I would be in bed with Allyson by 8 plus. She would be exploring her hands and fingers while I would be in dreamland hahaah. The whole experience this time is different from the time I had Allyson. Many friends have been asking me if I know the gender hahah.
I told them that it's a bit early to tell and if this second child is as shy as Allyson, then i would have to wait till the 5th month to go for the detailed scan. When I had Allyson, my gynae couldn't confirm if it was a boy or girl. He saw something coming out of the private part. At first he was quite sure, it's a boy but before we left the room, he told us that it's a 50-50 chance that it's a girl too. Indeed, the little thing that came out of the private part is actually her finger hahah.
The detailed scan is a very interesting one that shows the organs in the baby. Jasper and I saw Allyson doing some gymnastic stunts with her legs folded up when we went for the scan. She was really a cutie hahhaha Even till now, she's bringing up her legs every morning :)
I took medical leave today. Woke up feeling very nausea and pain in my pelvic area. I thought I better not go to school or else I may be more of a hindrance than help.
To all my friends out there, have a great week ahead and to all my teacher friends out there, let's all look forward to the hols hahahah *hugshugs*
Jasper and I plan to take Allyson to Gymboree and some other enrichment classes to expose her to other kids as well as see what interest her. Going to spend my time sourcing for a maid too. Jasper and I felt that it's not very economical to put two kids in infant care cos I would rather get a maid to take care of my chores. Going to plan some gatherings too. I always like the year end cos it's near to X'mas and somehow, the feeling of getting together with friends makes me feel rather heartwarming.
The symptoms for my 2nd pregnancy is very different. I tend to be nausea throughout the day especially after every meal even when I've not eaten a lot...I tend to be very very sleepy too hahaha usually, I would be in bed with Allyson by 8 plus. She would be exploring her hands and fingers while I would be in dreamland hahaah. The whole experience this time is different from the time I had Allyson. Many friends have been asking me if I know the gender hahah.
I told them that it's a bit early to tell and if this second child is as shy as Allyson, then i would have to wait till the 5th month to go for the detailed scan. When I had Allyson, my gynae couldn't confirm if it was a boy or girl. He saw something coming out of the private part. At first he was quite sure, it's a boy but before we left the room, he told us that it's a 50-50 chance that it's a girl too. Indeed, the little thing that came out of the private part is actually her finger hahah.
The detailed scan is a very interesting one that shows the organs in the baby. Jasper and I saw Allyson doing some gymnastic stunts with her legs folded up when we went for the scan. She was really a cutie hahhaha Even till now, she's bringing up her legs every morning :)
I took medical leave today. Woke up feeling very nausea and pain in my pelvic area. I thought I better not go to school or else I may be more of a hindrance than help.
To all my friends out there, have a great week ahead and to all my teacher friends out there, let's all look forward to the hols hahahah *hugshugs*
Monday, October 1, 2007
Joy
It's October today. For the past month, I seemed to have been rather pessimistic mostly about work. It's the first day of the month, I should be more optimistic as there's only 7 weeks left to the school holidays and I'm definitely looking forward to Jasper's b'day in end Oct, my b'day and Jasper's sister's b'day in end Nov and of cos the wonderful X'mas season....the nice cookies, logcakes, lights and presents. I've always looked forward to X'mas....feels very blessed to be able to celebrate the festival when we reach the end of the year.
This month, Jasper, Allyson and I are going for a hotel stay to relax n chill out before the PSLE marking. I guess since I can't change what I'm marking, I shall go for some total relaxation before the marking starts. At the end of the month, I'm going to celebrate Jasper's b'day in Mortons of Chicago, a restaurant that serves very good steak and chocolate cake. The kind that has delicious, warm chocolate oozing out of the cake hahhaha. We have heard from friends who went there so this is the time when we must try it out. It would be after the PSLE marking so it's like something to look forward to during this stressful PSLE marking.
I'm also looking forward to Dec when I would always organiser a christmas gathering for both sides of my family and my cousin's family. This year, my auntie from m'sia may be joining us. She is the auntie (my father's elder sis ) who took care of me from young. I would be catering food so it's easier for me ahhaha. I shall see if I have the time to make my famous patties, cookies and cakes. Maybe I can rope in Allyson (who will be 8-9 months) to help me *wink*
This year, I reunited with some old friends. I guess I might wanna organise a small gathering with them during the school holidays. It would be nice to just chit-chat and talk about old times.
I can empathise with my friend arwen regarding her driving test. I went through the same experience a few years back. Spent quite a lot of my savings and after 3 tests, I didn't make it. During the last test, I was rather confident of passing and throughout the whole lessons, my instructor was pretty confident that I would pass. My fate was sealed by a very unreasonable tester. I still remembered the first thing he saw me was tell me that I better drive carefully as he would be watching my closely (first scare). After that, at stop lines, he actually asked me why I stopped there (he was at the same time talking to some other instructors at the circuit) - (2nd scare). All my 100% confidence was reduced to 50% by then. By the time it came to parking, I just could not do it right. I mounted the kerb once and he told me that I've failed. After saying that, he even had the cheek to ask if I wanted to drive out to the main road.....*duh* I controlled my tears as I left the driving centre. On the way to the carpark where my instructor was waiting for me, I could not control my tears anymore and started sobbing uncontrollably and in between sobs, I kept telling him what had happened.
After that, I didn't have the guts to take up driving till now. Jasper and family members kept encouraging me. Jasper was especially nice, he kept telling me that if some of those errant drivers can pass, why can't I? I guess driving is really not for someone like me who's always easily scared by people. I guess if I drive with more guts I can pass. Whenever I see people driving on the road, I realised that driving skills are not important, what's important is whether you dare to drive dangerously hahah.
I shall try to take up driving next year after the birth of my second child. Let's hope I can do well and not waste money again. :)
I agree with my friend Kimberly who left a comment on my blog about not knowing what we are doing. I totally agree with her that seeing how some of the new batch of teachers behave, it made us wonder how are they going to mould the next generation. I shiver at the thought of leaving my own children in their hands. Kimberly is right, we should always treasure what we have and live each day well. We may be rather confused at some point in time regarding our job but I just take it as it's a job and it gives me a decent salary to support my family and give me some luxuries at times. Until I'm capable enough to really do something which I like (which is opening a cafe), I guess I shall just stay on in this decent job with a decent salary and just look forward to little pleasures in life.
This month, Jasper, Allyson and I are going for a hotel stay to relax n chill out before the PSLE marking. I guess since I can't change what I'm marking, I shall go for some total relaxation before the marking starts. At the end of the month, I'm going to celebrate Jasper's b'day in Mortons of Chicago, a restaurant that serves very good steak and chocolate cake. The kind that has delicious, warm chocolate oozing out of the cake hahhaha. We have heard from friends who went there so this is the time when we must try it out. It would be after the PSLE marking so it's like something to look forward to during this stressful PSLE marking.
I'm also looking forward to Dec when I would always organiser a christmas gathering for both sides of my family and my cousin's family. This year, my auntie from m'sia may be joining us. She is the auntie (my father's elder sis ) who took care of me from young. I would be catering food so it's easier for me ahhaha. I shall see if I have the time to make my famous patties, cookies and cakes. Maybe I can rope in Allyson (who will be 8-9 months) to help me *wink*
This year, I reunited with some old friends. I guess I might wanna organise a small gathering with them during the school holidays. It would be nice to just chit-chat and talk about old times.
I can empathise with my friend arwen regarding her driving test. I went through the same experience a few years back. Spent quite a lot of my savings and after 3 tests, I didn't make it. During the last test, I was rather confident of passing and throughout the whole lessons, my instructor was pretty confident that I would pass. My fate was sealed by a very unreasonable tester. I still remembered the first thing he saw me was tell me that I better drive carefully as he would be watching my closely (first scare). After that, at stop lines, he actually asked me why I stopped there (he was at the same time talking to some other instructors at the circuit) - (2nd scare). All my 100% confidence was reduced to 50% by then. By the time it came to parking, I just could not do it right. I mounted the kerb once and he told me that I've failed. After saying that, he even had the cheek to ask if I wanted to drive out to the main road.....*duh* I controlled my tears as I left the driving centre. On the way to the carpark where my instructor was waiting for me, I could not control my tears anymore and started sobbing uncontrollably and in between sobs, I kept telling him what had happened.
After that, I didn't have the guts to take up driving till now. Jasper and family members kept encouraging me. Jasper was especially nice, he kept telling me that if some of those errant drivers can pass, why can't I? I guess driving is really not for someone like me who's always easily scared by people. I guess if I drive with more guts I can pass. Whenever I see people driving on the road, I realised that driving skills are not important, what's important is whether you dare to drive dangerously hahah.
I shall try to take up driving next year after the birth of my second child. Let's hope I can do well and not waste money again. :)
I agree with my friend Kimberly who left a comment on my blog about not knowing what we are doing. I totally agree with her that seeing how some of the new batch of teachers behave, it made us wonder how are they going to mould the next generation. I shiver at the thought of leaving my own children in their hands. Kimberly is right, we should always treasure what we have and live each day well. We may be rather confused at some point in time regarding our job but I just take it as it's a job and it gives me a decent salary to support my family and give me some luxuries at times. Until I'm capable enough to really do something which I like (which is opening a cafe), I guess I shall just stay on in this decent job with a decent salary and just look forward to little pleasures in life.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Life...
Just read two good friends' blogs and can't help thinking through what they had posted. One thought about whether there's enough money in CPF for our old age and the other commented about how people should help one another. I sat on my bed wondering about money too. Every now and then, I check my finances to see if it would be advisable for me to take some months of no-pay leave next year. Having a child and keeping my job at the same time is not a problem. It's not a big problem even if my second child comes along. Keeping my job is the crucial thing.
I thought of leaving my job and give tuition to supplement income in the household but I realised that the CPF part is very crucial. I need that to pay my housing loan. If I were to do private tuition, I have to make sure that I earn even more than what I'm taking home now to contribute my share as well as employer's share of CPF into my account. Thus the question of whether it will be enough for old age is swimming in my head.
In all my six years of teaching, it was the first time I had a student spewing the F word at me on Monday. This student of mine have some emotional and behavioral problems which can be rather uncontrollable. I'm not sure if it's just my luck but every year, I do get some interesting pupils in my class. It seems that as the years go by, the kind of pupil becomes worse. Everyday when I go to school and go to my class, I would see this boy. I felt extremely tired as this boy just comes to school to waste time. If some provocation takes place, he would bang tables, throw things and even throw tables and chairs. I try my best not to go near him and ignore him as much. He refused to do work and just wanna play with the classmates. The classmates know about his condition and just goes along trying very hard not to trigger any matter that will cause him to flare up. Once he starts to flare up, the vulgar language comes on automatically.
It dawned on me that I must teach my own children well. Home background is very important in the course growing up. Childhood is very important. The type of childhood we go through may just determine the type of character we will build up as we grow up. I may not be able to give my child all the luxuries in life but I must be very sure to teach the correct values. and give my child a happy childhood. It may not be easy at all but I'm sure Jasper and I will try our very best.
I've been getting headaches rather often these days. Wonder if it's cos of the heat or is it becos there's alot on my mind which needs my attention hahaha. Hope the headaches will go away.
PS : I'm about 3 months pregnant with my second child now. I thank the heavens for blessing me with another child. I can assure all my friends and family that this child is definitely not an accident haha. Jasper and I just felt that it would be nice to have both our children grow up together and while we still have the energy to run after them. We do not wish to wait too long for a second child. I agree that when I broke the news to my family, my mother was totally shocked while my dad and in laws were rather happy about it hahaha. I assured my mother that I would take good care of myself and make sure that I let her know if I like to eat anything or drink any soup to build up my health.
I pray that everything will go well for me and my unborn child and of cos may all the blessings fall upon Jasper, Allyson, Daddy, Mummy, Papa, Mama, Brother, Sis-in-law, Sammi and sis-in-law as well as all my friends.
I thought of leaving my job and give tuition to supplement income in the household but I realised that the CPF part is very crucial. I need that to pay my housing loan. If I were to do private tuition, I have to make sure that I earn even more than what I'm taking home now to contribute my share as well as employer's share of CPF into my account. Thus the question of whether it will be enough for old age is swimming in my head.
In all my six years of teaching, it was the first time I had a student spewing the F word at me on Monday. This student of mine have some emotional and behavioral problems which can be rather uncontrollable. I'm not sure if it's just my luck but every year, I do get some interesting pupils in my class. It seems that as the years go by, the kind of pupil becomes worse. Everyday when I go to school and go to my class, I would see this boy. I felt extremely tired as this boy just comes to school to waste time. If some provocation takes place, he would bang tables, throw things and even throw tables and chairs. I try my best not to go near him and ignore him as much. He refused to do work and just wanna play with the classmates. The classmates know about his condition and just goes along trying very hard not to trigger any matter that will cause him to flare up. Once he starts to flare up, the vulgar language comes on automatically.
It dawned on me that I must teach my own children well. Home background is very important in the course growing up. Childhood is very important. The type of childhood we go through may just determine the type of character we will build up as we grow up. I may not be able to give my child all the luxuries in life but I must be very sure to teach the correct values. and give my child a happy childhood. It may not be easy at all but I'm sure Jasper and I will try our very best.
I've been getting headaches rather often these days. Wonder if it's cos of the heat or is it becos there's alot on my mind which needs my attention hahaha. Hope the headaches will go away.
PS : I'm about 3 months pregnant with my second child now. I thank the heavens for blessing me with another child. I can assure all my friends and family that this child is definitely not an accident haha. Jasper and I just felt that it would be nice to have both our children grow up together and while we still have the energy to run after them. We do not wish to wait too long for a second child. I agree that when I broke the news to my family, my mother was totally shocked while my dad and in laws were rather happy about it hahaha. I assured my mother that I would take good care of myself and make sure that I let her know if I like to eat anything or drink any soup to build up my health.
I pray that everything will go well for me and my unborn child and of cos may all the blessings fall upon Jasper, Allyson, Daddy, Mummy, Papa, Mama, Brother, Sis-in-law, Sammi and sis-in-law as well as all my friends.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Pre Children's Day
Children's Day coming soon and it's time for me to get ready all the presents for my students in class. Every year, I would give them something useful and some food. I would get party packs to pack the things for them. Though they may be naughty and irritating sometimes, when it comes to presents, they become more adorable on this one day in the year.
I miss getting children's day presents hahahha. Guess I've long passed that age nearly 20 years ago hahahah. This year, my colleagues are performing for the children. Last year, many teachers were not happy that there was no performance for the children as the organiser thought that it would be good to show the children how privileged they are to live in
Singapore compared to other children in other countries or even in Singapore itself. It turned out that the colleagues were not happy that they can't perform. Thus this year, the same organiser decided to open up to the teachers to have them choose what they want to perform so long as it's healthy :)
One day last week, I was doing duty during recess. I was supposed to make sure that the children are safe in the field as they play. As I sat staring at the field, I just felt a great disgust..asking myself over and over again whether this is the life I want to be in for the rest of my years. I'm 29 this year but somehow just can't help feeling that I should do something better outside? OR I should just change an environment to work in. I suddenly didn't know if I'm still suited to be in the teaching profession. What can I do if I don't continue to teach? Am I just tired over the whole education system, the way schools are run, kids' attitude or am I just tired of working and want to stop work for a while. I guess, I need to consider carefully...
Allyson is able to turn over on her own now and chuckles happily whenever we beat her bums hahaha. Some nights when she's with my in laws, I miss her so much that I would cry to myself. Guess this is the kind of feeling a mother has :) When she was ill, I cried quite a bit as I blame myself for not giving her enough breast milk to build up her immunity. She's only 5 months and she already has running nose and cough twice. Family members told me that it could also be because she's in infant care.
Germs tend to spread more as the only time the infant care centre doesn't take in the child is when the child is down with fever or symptoms of chicken pox or hand foot mouth disease. Some common running nose and cough, as parents, we can sign a form to tell the teachers to administer medicine to the child. Thus when Allyson caught the flu bug the second time, I have the suddenly urge to resign and take care of her full time. It may be a rash decision...on the other hand, after calculating finances, it's not too advisable to resign. Then I'm contemplating getting a maid but I need to convince my mother to stay at home with a maid. *sigh*
I'm really worried that she may catch the flu bug again. Seeing her not having any energy to even smile and seeing her mucus drip from her nose really breaks my heart. At this age, I can only feed her liquids thus I bought a bottle of Del Rosa which is full of vitamin C to give her some maybe once a week or every 3-4 days. I hope this can help to give her more immunity against the germs...
tomorrow's the start of a working week. I pray that all of us going back to work will have a smooth and peaceful week ahead.
I miss getting children's day presents hahahha. Guess I've long passed that age nearly 20 years ago hahahah. This year, my colleagues are performing for the children. Last year, many teachers were not happy that there was no performance for the children as the organiser thought that it would be good to show the children how privileged they are to live in
Singapore compared to other children in other countries or even in Singapore itself. It turned out that the colleagues were not happy that they can't perform. Thus this year, the same organiser decided to open up to the teachers to have them choose what they want to perform so long as it's healthy :)
One day last week, I was doing duty during recess. I was supposed to make sure that the children are safe in the field as they play. As I sat staring at the field, I just felt a great disgust..asking myself over and over again whether this is the life I want to be in for the rest of my years. I'm 29 this year but somehow just can't help feeling that I should do something better outside? OR I should just change an environment to work in. I suddenly didn't know if I'm still suited to be in the teaching profession. What can I do if I don't continue to teach? Am I just tired over the whole education system, the way schools are run, kids' attitude or am I just tired of working and want to stop work for a while. I guess, I need to consider carefully...
Allyson is able to turn over on her own now and chuckles happily whenever we beat her bums hahaha. Some nights when she's with my in laws, I miss her so much that I would cry to myself. Guess this is the kind of feeling a mother has :) When she was ill, I cried quite a bit as I blame myself for not giving her enough breast milk to build up her immunity. She's only 5 months and she already has running nose and cough twice. Family members told me that it could also be because she's in infant care.
Germs tend to spread more as the only time the infant care centre doesn't take in the child is when the child is down with fever or symptoms of chicken pox or hand foot mouth disease. Some common running nose and cough, as parents, we can sign a form to tell the teachers to administer medicine to the child. Thus when Allyson caught the flu bug the second time, I have the suddenly urge to resign and take care of her full time. It may be a rash decision...on the other hand, after calculating finances, it's not too advisable to resign. Then I'm contemplating getting a maid but I need to convince my mother to stay at home with a maid. *sigh*
I'm really worried that she may catch the flu bug again. Seeing her not having any energy to even smile and seeing her mucus drip from her nose really breaks my heart. At this age, I can only feed her liquids thus I bought a bottle of Del Rosa which is full of vitamin C to give her some maybe once a week or every 3-4 days. I hope this can help to give her more immunity against the germs...
tomorrow's the start of a working week. I pray that all of us going back to work will have a smooth and peaceful week ahead.
Monday, September 17, 2007
Monday night
Monday nights have been quite the same as any other nights for me. I guess cos I'm in a routine whereby I start putting my girl to bed between 8pm - 9pm. I will play with her, sing to her, pat her and by the time i may be snoring away, she's still wide awake give me her toothless grin hahahah : ) Thus it's quite the same every night, therefore, monday nights has not much effect on me. Tonight's a little different, her doting grandfather missed her so much after sending her to the child care centre this morning that he came over to my place at about 8.15pm to take her home and spend the night. It's a pretty good idea cos I can have some private time on my own too to finish up work or just hang around reading friends' blogs and update mine. At the same time, they need not get up too early tomorrow morning. It's like killing two birds with one stone.
My quiet mundane night has changed after reading my friends' blogs. It's always heartening and encouraging to read comments which my friends and hubby left in my blog. I can't get enough advice from my friend arwen who never fails to amaze me in many ways since our school days.
My other friend Ting is always surprising me with her entries on her blogs. I exceptionally felt rejuvenated and motivated after watching 'THE HAKA' on the U-tube which she posted on her blog. These are the little things which I look forward to as a form of destress for myself.
The comments friends and hubby left me always pose as a source of strength for me to look at like in a more optimistic way. Not forgetting the beautiful smile my daughter gives when I play with her or simply when I call her name. I guess all these are simply priceless.
Well, I'm not stressed out from taking care of my lovely daughter but i'm rather stressed out from work. Sometimes, stressed out from the way some 'big shot' (meaning those in the good books of .......) colleagues look at me or talk to me when I inform or ask them something. I know there are many kinds of people in this world and some are just around to irritate us. I just hates it when they irritate me on a Monday morning. Really don't like the feeling.
I pray that my friends kimberly, arwen and ting will be able to get enough rest from all the things that they had to do.
I pray that I will be able to get along well with my marking colleagues and superiors. I've been sent to mark psle composition and situational writing this year. This is my third year. I had a break last year and did some 'recording of marks' job cos of my pregnancy. This year, I had no excuse to get a lighter load. I had a very bad experience the previous year which resulted in me going home to cry every night. I just can't tolerate the vast discrepancies between fellow colleagues (from other schools so different expectations) and my marking. My life was utterly miserable there. When I knew that I had to go to the same place again, I just trembled. Therefore, I'm really praying very hard that I will keep my sanity during the 4 days of marking.
I pray that my friends and every family member will be blessed with all the goodness in life.
My quiet mundane night has changed after reading my friends' blogs. It's always heartening and encouraging to read comments which my friends and hubby left in my blog. I can't get enough advice from my friend arwen who never fails to amaze me in many ways since our school days.
My other friend Ting is always surprising me with her entries on her blogs. I exceptionally felt rejuvenated and motivated after watching 'THE HAKA' on the U-tube which she posted on her blog. These are the little things which I look forward to as a form of destress for myself.
The comments friends and hubby left me always pose as a source of strength for me to look at like in a more optimistic way. Not forgetting the beautiful smile my daughter gives when I play with her or simply when I call her name. I guess all these are simply priceless.
Well, I'm not stressed out from taking care of my lovely daughter but i'm rather stressed out from work. Sometimes, stressed out from the way some 'big shot' (meaning those in the good books of .......) colleagues look at me or talk to me when I inform or ask them something. I know there are many kinds of people in this world and some are just around to irritate us. I just hates it when they irritate me on a Monday morning. Really don't like the feeling.
I pray that my friends kimberly, arwen and ting will be able to get enough rest from all the things that they had to do.
I pray that I will be able to get along well with my marking colleagues and superiors. I've been sent to mark psle composition and situational writing this year. This is my third year. I had a break last year and did some 'recording of marks' job cos of my pregnancy. This year, I had no excuse to get a lighter load. I had a very bad experience the previous year which resulted in me going home to cry every night. I just can't tolerate the vast discrepancies between fellow colleagues (from other schools so different expectations) and my marking. My life was utterly miserable there. When I knew that I had to go to the same place again, I just trembled. Therefore, I'm really praying very hard that I will keep my sanity during the 4 days of marking.
I pray that my friends and every family member will be blessed with all the goodness in life.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Sunday....
Today's quite a breezy and cloudy day but dunno why I experienced a very painful headache that's throbbing in my head. It started about 12 plus on my way from my in laws' home to take my daughter back. Must give my in laws some private time to go out and enjoy too. They have been very nice to take care of my girl from Friday night to Saturday night and tonight, she's going back to her grandparents' home so that my in laws need not get up soo early on Monday morning.
We usually take our girl to my in laws place as early as 6.15am. Really can be quite tough for my mum in law especially who has to wake up to boil water for my girl so that milk can be made when she reaches there. My father in law will take my girl to the child care centre which opens at 7pm. Seriously, in my job, it's really not too possible to drop my girl off at the centre before going to school. I may be grossly late especially the teachers at the centre need to take temperature and check baby's hand, feet and mouth to make sure everything's normal before I can go off. My hubby is in the same job as me too ahhaha. Thank goodness my father in law works later...*phew* if not I guess I may just have to leave my job and be a housewife :))
Quite a pretty good idea for me but Jasper and I have discussed countless times that it's really not too possible at least for these 5 years. We need to really build up our finances so well that money won't be a problem....
Recently, I just heard a friend saying her hubby sponsored her for a spa treatment and it cost about $1k. It was a rather sweet gesture of him to do that. I always believe that hubbys should give their wives a little surprises here and there or sponsor some things here and there to make them every happier. Of cos, these are just material stuff which seriously, any working woman is able to afford it. What kind of made me change a little of my impression of this friend is what she said next. She actually mentioned how lucky she was to have such a husband and wondered what did she ever do to deserve all these goodness from him.....
As her friends, we all know how lucky she is since the day she was born. Financially, she need not worry about a single thing. After she got married, her hubby is also earning sufficiently well to buy nearly anything that she wants. Did I mention that her hubby is really very good kind. The kind that really did not quarrel with her.....They have dined in very expensive restaurants, slept on very expensive bedsheet which costs a few hundreds. Moreover, the size of the diamond ring that her hubby gave to her would be something that not many hubbys are able to afford in nearly 10 years hahaha.
I don't deny that when I first knew her, I was really very happy for her that she has found such a good husband who is willing to give her everything. As time goes by, some things that she said makes me feel worried for her. Maybe some of you may say that I'm just jealous cos I don't have her kind of wealth or that my hubby is not able to give me what she has received from hers. Maybe I am, Maybe I'm not hahahah.
Well, seriously, from the bottom of my heart, the day I chose my hubby, I know he is not able to give me all that was given to my friend at least not during these few years. I chose him more for his character and his strong family values.
I can't help but remembered what both my grandmothers and later my mother and my mother in law had told me. Marriage is supposed to be for life. Throughout the marriage, we may go through ups and downs. How good our marriage is depends on whether we are able to grow old with each other and to quote my friend arwen..'to be able to make kaya toast' for our partner till the day either of us leave this world. Material things can be given as long as we can afford it. Sometimes, we wonder if it's necessary to buy things that are sooo expensive. I guess people who have never gone through poverty will never feel how it would be like to save whatever we can and forgo our wants. We need to concentrate on our needs. To me, a bedsheet that's about $50 is alot for me hahahah I rather save some $ for my daughter hahhah
We usually take our girl to my in laws place as early as 6.15am. Really can be quite tough for my mum in law especially who has to wake up to boil water for my girl so that milk can be made when she reaches there. My father in law will take my girl to the child care centre which opens at 7pm. Seriously, in my job, it's really not too possible to drop my girl off at the centre before going to school. I may be grossly late especially the teachers at the centre need to take temperature and check baby's hand, feet and mouth to make sure everything's normal before I can go off. My hubby is in the same job as me too ahhaha. Thank goodness my father in law works later...*phew* if not I guess I may just have to leave my job and be a housewife :))
Quite a pretty good idea for me but Jasper and I have discussed countless times that it's really not too possible at least for these 5 years. We need to really build up our finances so well that money won't be a problem....
Recently, I just heard a friend saying her hubby sponsored her for a spa treatment and it cost about $1k. It was a rather sweet gesture of him to do that. I always believe that hubbys should give their wives a little surprises here and there or sponsor some things here and there to make them every happier. Of cos, these are just material stuff which seriously, any working woman is able to afford it. What kind of made me change a little of my impression of this friend is what she said next. She actually mentioned how lucky she was to have such a husband and wondered what did she ever do to deserve all these goodness from him.....
As her friends, we all know how lucky she is since the day she was born. Financially, she need not worry about a single thing. After she got married, her hubby is also earning sufficiently well to buy nearly anything that she wants. Did I mention that her hubby is really very good kind. The kind that really did not quarrel with her.....They have dined in very expensive restaurants, slept on very expensive bedsheet which costs a few hundreds. Moreover, the size of the diamond ring that her hubby gave to her would be something that not many hubbys are able to afford in nearly 10 years hahaha.
I don't deny that when I first knew her, I was really very happy for her that she has found such a good husband who is willing to give her everything. As time goes by, some things that she said makes me feel worried for her. Maybe some of you may say that I'm just jealous cos I don't have her kind of wealth or that my hubby is not able to give me what she has received from hers. Maybe I am, Maybe I'm not hahahah.
Well, seriously, from the bottom of my heart, the day I chose my hubby, I know he is not able to give me all that was given to my friend at least not during these few years. I chose him more for his character and his strong family values.
I can't help but remembered what both my grandmothers and later my mother and my mother in law had told me. Marriage is supposed to be for life. Throughout the marriage, we may go through ups and downs. How good our marriage is depends on whether we are able to grow old with each other and to quote my friend arwen..'to be able to make kaya toast' for our partner till the day either of us leave this world. Material things can be given as long as we can afford it. Sometimes, we wonder if it's necessary to buy things that are sooo expensive. I guess people who have never gone through poverty will never feel how it would be like to save whatever we can and forgo our wants. We need to concentrate on our needs. To me, a bedsheet that's about $50 is alot for me hahahah I rather save some $ for my daughter hahhah
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Thursday...
I finally finished my work review and I'm quite stoned. Didn't get much sleep last night..had dreams throughout the whole night *sigh* Was like a zombie today hahhaha.
Suddenly realised that I bought sooo many books in the last few years. My mummy was clearing my room with all the cupboards and she found soo many books that I had to go and check whether I want it. My parents are shifting to another place and they are soo busy. As children, we try to help here and there too :)
Tomorrow's PSLE Listening Comprehension examination. I'm posted to a nearby school so no need to wake up too early. For PSLE marking in a few weeks' time, I had to do something which I don't really like. Not sure if I can do it well but pray hard that all those whom I'm working with are kind and understanding. During this period, marking is very stressful. Must drink more essence of chicken to keep my alertness up.
Weekend is approaching but somehow i'm not too excited about it. I've had quite bad experiences during the last few weekends ...
Suddenly realised that I bought sooo many books in the last few years. My mummy was clearing my room with all the cupboards and she found soo many books that I had to go and check whether I want it. My parents are shifting to another place and they are soo busy. As children, we try to help here and there too :)
Tomorrow's PSLE Listening Comprehension examination. I'm posted to a nearby school so no need to wake up too early. For PSLE marking in a few weeks' time, I had to do something which I don't really like. Not sure if I can do it well but pray hard that all those whom I'm working with are kind and understanding. During this period, marking is very stressful. Must drink more essence of chicken to keep my alertness up.
Weekend is approaching but somehow i'm not too excited about it. I've had quite bad experiences during the last few weekends ...
Monday, September 10, 2007
Beginning of the week
Hmmm.. just read arwen's post on her blog about marriage and companion. Indeed, everything's true about what she had posted. A marriage is also not easy to maintain. Many times, we thought that love alone can conquer everything else. Not just love alone but sometimes, a little change in our own character. I always remembered what my mother said. She said this, 'Marriage is for life. Unless the husband or wife turns out to be some crazy person or some abuser, marriage should be maintained till the day both are buried in the soil.' I find that it makes good sense. BEing in a marriage is not just between two beings. It involves family members and sometimes even extended family members. You may not fully understand your partner's character, habits and attitude towards things before marriage but everything is revealed in the marriage hahaha!
Thus how do we go about handling our partner in the end. Some choose to get out of the whole thing while others choose to see how they can make things better. After all, why did the marriage take place in the beginning. There must be love and liking for each other's ways of living. Thus, before we take a rash action to end a marriage, two beings must sit down and think why did they come together in the first place.
All the best to my friend who wants to make kaya bread for her companion. I'm sure you will be able to find one really good companion :)
I believe it will not just be only kaya bread that she will be making for her companion.
After the birth of my first child, I did think of having another child soon. Well, i'm sure my friends will be duly informed if i'm pregnant again hahahhah
Hmmm actually I'm aiming for 4 kids...hmm wonder if i can manage hahaha not just mentally, physically but definitely financially hahah. There are many things to think about. With four kids, means Jasper gotta change to a bigger car which in turn goes back to the financial factor. Well, shall see how my life goes now.
It's a rather busy night for me. After I log out of my blog, I need to bury my head into writing my work review. Somehow, I really don't know what to write as I've kind of stopped working since end April when I gave birth to my girl. The 3 months maternity leave plus subsequently, a week of child care leave (my girl was down with flu) and followed tightly by my conjunctivities. I kind of have lost touch with my work. I seriously don't know how to face my Reporting Officer hahah I didn't even attend external courses so how am I going to evaluate on my development?!
Sometimes, I felt that it's quite interesting that in my job, we have to go through out work review twice a year and on top of that, we have to type out in a summarised version what we had achieved in the year on another format other than the work review format that we are already doing....
Many things are swimming around my head now. Have to go update my work review and see what else 1 can squeeze out of my head. Guess I would be totally knocked out in about an hour....
Thus how do we go about handling our partner in the end. Some choose to get out of the whole thing while others choose to see how they can make things better. After all, why did the marriage take place in the beginning. There must be love and liking for each other's ways of living. Thus, before we take a rash action to end a marriage, two beings must sit down and think why did they come together in the first place.
All the best to my friend who wants to make kaya bread for her companion. I'm sure you will be able to find one really good companion :)
I believe it will not just be only kaya bread that she will be making for her companion.
After the birth of my first child, I did think of having another child soon. Well, i'm sure my friends will be duly informed if i'm pregnant again hahahhah
Hmmm actually I'm aiming for 4 kids...hmm wonder if i can manage hahaha not just mentally, physically but definitely financially hahah. There are many things to think about. With four kids, means Jasper gotta change to a bigger car which in turn goes back to the financial factor. Well, shall see how my life goes now.
It's a rather busy night for me. After I log out of my blog, I need to bury my head into writing my work review. Somehow, I really don't know what to write as I've kind of stopped working since end April when I gave birth to my girl. The 3 months maternity leave plus subsequently, a week of child care leave (my girl was down with flu) and followed tightly by my conjunctivities. I kind of have lost touch with my work. I seriously don't know how to face my Reporting Officer hahah I didn't even attend external courses so how am I going to evaluate on my development?!
Sometimes, I felt that it's quite interesting that in my job, we have to go through out work review twice a year and on top of that, we have to type out in a summarised version what we had achieved in the year on another format other than the work review format that we are already doing....
Many things are swimming around my head now. Have to go update my work review and see what else 1 can squeeze out of my head. Guess I would be totally knocked out in about an hour....
Sunday, September 9, 2007
End of Holidays
Today's the end of the Sept hols. Seriously, I didn't enjoy this holidays at all. Just when I thought I can enjoy the weekend b4 school starts, I was down with vomitting, constipation and slight diarrhoea yesterday. I was at Vivo city with my in laws, hubby and baby. We had dinner at the food court and just 5 minutes after I got up to proceed to Gloria Jeans for drinks, I wanted to vomit. Threw up everything I had for dinner. Thought everything was ok after throwing up, barely 5 minutes again, I went to the toilet and sat there for 15 min. My goodness!! my tummy felt like it was going to burst anytime....sigh.... When we got home about 10am, I was sooo weak that I had to tell my hubby to pull me up to brush my teeth... Wonder what's going on with me. I'm praying that everything will go well once school starts tomorrow.
I'm sure my friend arwen is going to learn her Canon in D very well hehehe I'm looking forward to you playing for us to listen :))
Hmmm, just got a comment on my blog from Kimberly. Wonder if she's another good friend who knows Ting and Arwen as well? ;)
It's Term 4 starting from tomorrow and it's going to be another mad rush for the next 10 weeks with much deadlines and teaching to be carried out before we can enjoy the year-end holidays.
I'm really looking forward to that.
Just came back from Ikea. was there with in laws for dinner. The whole dining place was sooo packed that a few of us had to stand at different locations to wait for tables. Coincidentally, I met an old friend whom I last saw during my wedding. Ting knows this friend too ;) She even sat together with him at my wedding. He looked soo tired. I guess we all do become very tired as the years go by especially for some of us with kids to look after. My day usually ends with me sleeping together with my daughter hahah Can't bring myself to do any more things after patting her to sleep. Sometimes, I manage to get up and have some dessert with Jasper, spending quality time with each other :)
This afternoon, I had lunch at my parents' place. My dad bought ingredients to make chicken soup for me and bought a pomfret (costs $10) for me to eat *yum yum* Really miss my parents' cooking. They make wonderful soups which taste totally different from anywhere else outside. It's very clear and delicious. I never really like to drink chicken soup outside. The steamed pomfret was great, I kind of finished up nearly 3/4 of the fish ahhaha my hubby helped me with the other 1/4.
dunno why as I move on in my years, I tend to miss my parents very much hoping that they would be with me for as long as i live. I guess my sentiments grew after my grandma passed away on 15 July this year. Seeing the emotions which my dad displayed during the few days of wake, made me realise how close parents are to their children. My dad has always been a very cool and stern kind of man. He doesn't talk a lot but he cares alot about our well-being. The words he said on the day of Grandma's funeral was really heart wrenching. He expressed the deepest feelings of a mother to her children. That day, I saw my father in a different light. Was telling Jasper that, no matter how strong a man is, he will break down one day when his own parent passes away. Thus, we hope to love, treasure and give our parents more of our time as much as we can. I don't like to feeling of losing my parents.......Frankly, I'm really afraid of losing them....Daddy n Mummy, brother and I love you both very much.
I'm sure my friend arwen is going to learn her Canon in D very well hehehe I'm looking forward to you playing for us to listen :))
Hmmm, just got a comment on my blog from Kimberly. Wonder if she's another good friend who knows Ting and Arwen as well? ;)
It's Term 4 starting from tomorrow and it's going to be another mad rush for the next 10 weeks with much deadlines and teaching to be carried out before we can enjoy the year-end holidays.
I'm really looking forward to that.
Just came back from Ikea. was there with in laws for dinner. The whole dining place was sooo packed that a few of us had to stand at different locations to wait for tables. Coincidentally, I met an old friend whom I last saw during my wedding. Ting knows this friend too ;) She even sat together with him at my wedding. He looked soo tired. I guess we all do become very tired as the years go by especially for some of us with kids to look after. My day usually ends with me sleeping together with my daughter hahah Can't bring myself to do any more things after patting her to sleep. Sometimes, I manage to get up and have some dessert with Jasper, spending quality time with each other :)
This afternoon, I had lunch at my parents' place. My dad bought ingredients to make chicken soup for me and bought a pomfret (costs $10) for me to eat *yum yum* Really miss my parents' cooking. They make wonderful soups which taste totally different from anywhere else outside. It's very clear and delicious. I never really like to drink chicken soup outside. The steamed pomfret was great, I kind of finished up nearly 3/4 of the fish ahhaha my hubby helped me with the other 1/4.
dunno why as I move on in my years, I tend to miss my parents very much hoping that they would be with me for as long as i live. I guess my sentiments grew after my grandma passed away on 15 July this year. Seeing the emotions which my dad displayed during the few days of wake, made me realise how close parents are to their children. My dad has always been a very cool and stern kind of man. He doesn't talk a lot but he cares alot about our well-being. The words he said on the day of Grandma's funeral was really heart wrenching. He expressed the deepest feelings of a mother to her children. That day, I saw my father in a different light. Was telling Jasper that, no matter how strong a man is, he will break down one day when his own parent passes away. Thus, we hope to love, treasure and give our parents more of our time as much as we can. I don't like to feeling of losing my parents.......Frankly, I'm really afraid of losing them....Daddy n Mummy, brother and I love you both very much.
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Mid - Week
It's the middle of the week and here I am typing this on my bed with my girl sleeping soundly beside me. It's good that she can sleep more at home cos she's always sooo busy at the infant care centre. Sometimes, when she's there for about 7 hours, she slept only about 75 - 80 minutes. My hubby Jasper and I gathered that she's very distracted with what her peers are doing. Wonder if it's becos one of us is very distracted sometimes. I think I'm the one hmmm my hubby has always been the extremely focused kind of man. Once he sets out to do something, he would stay on track and complete it.
Just went for my eye check up on Tuesday and the eye doctor Mel told me that everything's good. I just need to put some normal eyedrops which she prescribed and to stop the previous ones. The redness has really gone off a great deal. I'm soooooo happy that I could take care of Allyson once again. I still do not dare to put my face too near her so I give her lots of finger kisses daily hehehe. I guess I wanna let the redness go off completely before I really put my face close to her. Gotta go back for another check up at TTSH in 3 weeks to let Mel see that I've totally recovered.
Allyson is slowly learning to keep her head upright when we carry her and she's always excited to see the world instead of the usual ceiling view when we carried her for the past few months.
Was looking through Ting's blog about the carebear show she went to. It made me realise that kids these days grew up with different toys. When I talk to my pupils in school, they tell me about HABBO, computer games and more computer webpages. Suddenly realised time has really changed. My friends and I didn't have much luxury owning a computer at home to be playing computer games. I believe most of us grew up with dolls, soft toys and toy cars.
I remembered my dad gave me a very big n soft teddy bear whom we name it MAMA BEAR. I still have it with me till now and my niece is playing with MAMA BEAR daily, making tea for her to drink or just teaching her to sit properly hahaha. My niece is 3 years old and she's putting what she learnt in preschool to good use at home *wink*
Another set of dolls which I named them BOY BOY AND GIRL GIRL is very much adored by my parents. We would buy clothing for them to wear. I'm sure friends who has gone to my parents' home would remember my precious dolls. They are quite similar to the ICE CREAM DOLLS in the past. My mum even told us never to give them away even till the day she's no longer around.
These days, I buy educational toys for my daughter. Toys that has music, reading and colour stimulation. The only stuff toy my girl has is a little elmo which we named it her guardian angel. I'm moving on to buying word and picture cards for her. She gets distracted easily so the cards must be very interesting :) These days, she's beginning to try to listen to at least half a story before she gets distracted.
I'm very proud of my friend Diane, she has been learning so many things in the past few years. I truly admire her determination and energy to learn all the things.
Hey Diane, I don't mind you playing at my daughter's b'day? Hmmmm how long must I book you in advance?
Just went for my eye check up on Tuesday and the eye doctor Mel told me that everything's good. I just need to put some normal eyedrops which she prescribed and to stop the previous ones. The redness has really gone off a great deal. I'm soooooo happy that I could take care of Allyson once again. I still do not dare to put my face too near her so I give her lots of finger kisses daily hehehe. I guess I wanna let the redness go off completely before I really put my face close to her. Gotta go back for another check up at TTSH in 3 weeks to let Mel see that I've totally recovered.
Allyson is slowly learning to keep her head upright when we carry her and she's always excited to see the world instead of the usual ceiling view when we carried her for the past few months.
Was looking through Ting's blog about the carebear show she went to. It made me realise that kids these days grew up with different toys. When I talk to my pupils in school, they tell me about HABBO, computer games and more computer webpages. Suddenly realised time has really changed. My friends and I didn't have much luxury owning a computer at home to be playing computer games. I believe most of us grew up with dolls, soft toys and toy cars.
I remembered my dad gave me a very big n soft teddy bear whom we name it MAMA BEAR. I still have it with me till now and my niece is playing with MAMA BEAR daily, making tea for her to drink or just teaching her to sit properly hahaha. My niece is 3 years old and she's putting what she learnt in preschool to good use at home *wink*
Another set of dolls which I named them BOY BOY AND GIRL GIRL is very much adored by my parents. We would buy clothing for them to wear. I'm sure friends who has gone to my parents' home would remember my precious dolls. They are quite similar to the ICE CREAM DOLLS in the past. My mum even told us never to give them away even till the day she's no longer around.
These days, I buy educational toys for my daughter. Toys that has music, reading and colour stimulation. The only stuff toy my girl has is a little elmo which we named it her guardian angel. I'm moving on to buying word and picture cards for her. She gets distracted easily so the cards must be very interesting :) These days, she's beginning to try to listen to at least half a story before she gets distracted.
I'm very proud of my friend Diane, she has been learning so many things in the past few years. I truly admire her determination and energy to learn all the things.
Hey Diane, I don't mind you playing at my daughter's b'day? Hmmmm how long must I book you in advance?
Friday, August 31, 2007
Happy Teacher's Day
Happy Teacher's Day to all the teachers in this world!
Some schools have either a half day or a school holiday today as Teacher's Day falls on 1 Sept which is a saturday so it's like off-in-lieu. Many schools are having their teacher's day dinner tonight while others had theirs last week or last night.
Teacher's Day dinners give teachers the opportunity to dress up, catch up with one another, take pictures etc. We don't have much time to chat a lot during school hours so tend to talk and laugh more during dinners like this. My school had ours at The Legends. Food was not important but the company we had that night. We were entertained by wonderful songs put up by fellow colleagues and had fun gossiping with close ones outside the venue.
My ex students called and sms me last night wanting to come over to school but I had to turn them down due to my eye infection. I promised them that we shall meet outside school at some fast food restaurant when school reopens. It's very heartening to know that ex students still remember me after all the scoldings and naggings which I've given them ahhaha :)
I guess this year is my most pathetic Teacher's Day. I'm all alone at home updating my blog nursing an eye infection while my colleagues and friends who are teachers are enjoying the celebrations put up by their students. Was still rather pessismistic last night but the thought of my baby and my hubby's encouragement gave me strength and courage to recover as fast as I can. At the same time, I was listening to a song by Josh Groban 'You Are Loved'. I kept repeating the song till my CD player nearly konked out hahaha. The words are simply meaningful.
Simply loved the way Josh sings, so powerful, so manly (hmmmm just like my husband *wink*).
Really missed my hubby's bear hugs.......
Josh's voice can really put me into a mode of relaxation or trance, living in a world of my own not bothering about what happened around me.
Thanks to arwen for the tips and ting for your concern and hugs :))
You Are Loved
(Don't Give Up)
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy I
I will lift it for you
Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you I
I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved
Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside I
I'll be there to find you
Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I
I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody needs to be loved
Don't give up
Because...you are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everybody needs to be loved
You are loved
Some schools have either a half day or a school holiday today as Teacher's Day falls on 1 Sept which is a saturday so it's like off-in-lieu. Many schools are having their teacher's day dinner tonight while others had theirs last week or last night.
Teacher's Day dinners give teachers the opportunity to dress up, catch up with one another, take pictures etc. We don't have much time to chat a lot during school hours so tend to talk and laugh more during dinners like this. My school had ours at The Legends. Food was not important but the company we had that night. We were entertained by wonderful songs put up by fellow colleagues and had fun gossiping with close ones outside the venue.
My ex students called and sms me last night wanting to come over to school but I had to turn them down due to my eye infection. I promised them that we shall meet outside school at some fast food restaurant when school reopens. It's very heartening to know that ex students still remember me after all the scoldings and naggings which I've given them ahhaha :)
I guess this year is my most pathetic Teacher's Day. I'm all alone at home updating my blog nursing an eye infection while my colleagues and friends who are teachers are enjoying the celebrations put up by their students. Was still rather pessismistic last night but the thought of my baby and my hubby's encouragement gave me strength and courage to recover as fast as I can. At the same time, I was listening to a song by Josh Groban 'You Are Loved'. I kept repeating the song till my CD player nearly konked out hahaha. The words are simply meaningful.
Simply loved the way Josh sings, so powerful, so manly (hmmmm just like my husband *wink*).
Really missed my hubby's bear hugs.......
Josh's voice can really put me into a mode of relaxation or trance, living in a world of my own not bothering about what happened around me.
Thanks to arwen for the tips and ting for your concern and hugs :))
You Are Loved
(Don't Give Up)
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy I
I will lift it for you
Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you I
I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved
Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside I
I'll be there to find you
Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I
I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody needs to be loved
Don't give up
Because...you are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everybody needs to be loved
You are loved
Thursday, August 30, 2007
A Challenging Week
This week has been a week of self-reflection, fear, heartache and worry. It all started on 25 Aug 2007 (Sat). I started to experience pain in my left eye with green discharge and blurry eyesight. Consulted a GP and was told that it was eye infection. Put the eyedrops and green discharge stopped. Fever came on at night measuring up to 38.1 degree celsius. Come Sunday, redness went to right eye and left eye was more swollen that before. I decided to consult my family doctor who is more experienced. He gave me a stronger eyedrop and medicine to bring down the swell. Fever continues.
By Monday afternoon, left eye became bloodshot as if some vessel had burst and whole eye looked really like blood. Come Tuesday, I went straight to A&E at TTSH in the afternoon, waited n waited till I saw an eye doctor. I was diagnosed for conjunctivities haemorrage. He gave me some eye drops which I dutifully put on for two days. There is some improvement as my left eye is no longer bloodshot but it will take time for the redness to clear. My right eye is completely alright now.
Throughout these few days, there's this fear of me becoming blind, not able to see my family and my beautiful baby girl. I want to be able to grow up with her and be there when she reaches each milestone. I am separated from her till now as I do not want her to be susceptible to the infection. After all, she's only 4 months old and her immunity has not been built up yet. I could not touch her and could only see her from about one metre away. The heartache is beyond description. I wondered how some mothers could be so cruel as to abuse their own babies or allow others to abuse them.
These few days of separation tore my heart out. She stayed with my in laws at night. I prayed very hard that I will recover by the end of this week so that I can be with my darling, cuddle her and kiss her. I thank the heavens for a very supportive husband. He tries to make everything easy for me and makes me laugh so as not to think of my heartache too much. I thank both sides of the family as well. My parents-in -law who never fails to take good care of my baby. My mum and mum-in-law calls me every morning to make sure I was alright. My brother calls a few times to ask about my condition.
I believe without their support, I could have easily gone into some depression and I can get rather emotional sometimes. Colleagues at work were also wonderful. Just want to say a big THANK YOU to all of you at work! :)
By Monday afternoon, left eye became bloodshot as if some vessel had burst and whole eye looked really like blood. Come Tuesday, I went straight to A&E at TTSH in the afternoon, waited n waited till I saw an eye doctor. I was diagnosed for conjunctivities haemorrage. He gave me some eye drops which I dutifully put on for two days. There is some improvement as my left eye is no longer bloodshot but it will take time for the redness to clear. My right eye is completely alright now.
Throughout these few days, there's this fear of me becoming blind, not able to see my family and my beautiful baby girl. I want to be able to grow up with her and be there when she reaches each milestone. I am separated from her till now as I do not want her to be susceptible to the infection. After all, she's only 4 months old and her immunity has not been built up yet. I could not touch her and could only see her from about one metre away. The heartache is beyond description. I wondered how some mothers could be so cruel as to abuse their own babies or allow others to abuse them.
These few days of separation tore my heart out. She stayed with my in laws at night. I prayed very hard that I will recover by the end of this week so that I can be with my darling, cuddle her and kiss her. I thank the heavens for a very supportive husband. He tries to make everything easy for me and makes me laugh so as not to think of my heartache too much. I thank both sides of the family as well. My parents-in -law who never fails to take good care of my baby. My mum and mum-in-law calls me every morning to make sure I was alright. My brother calls a few times to ask about my condition.
I believe without their support, I could have easily gone into some depression and I can get rather emotional sometimes. Colleagues at work were also wonderful. Just want to say a big THANK YOU to all of you at work! :)
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